Who am I?

So its in the middle of the day, and I'm blogging... which is super uncommon for me. (Yall know I normally blog 3am and later lol) But I'm sitting here, getting ready to start my day and I realized... I really suck right now. Have you ever examined your life and just did not like what you saw? Not physically, but yourself over all. I look in the mirror sometimes and don't even recognize myself. I've acquired some characteristics that I just can't stand. I'm only 21 and have made a huge mess. Its hard to admit, but I have to be honest with myself, and I hope this helps someone else to be honest with themselves as well.. same situation or not. ( WHEW! HUGE run on sentence lol) They say the truth hurts and babyyyyy, they aint NEVER lied 'cause I am hur-ting! Its hard to look at all of the mistakes you've made and not want to cry. I realize that my pride has been a huge hindrance in me dealing with my issues. Afraid of how people (mainly those closest to me) would view me if they knew the truth. But I am no where near perfect and would hate to deceive anyone. Paige got issues... just like everybody else! However, the season I'm in now is forcing me to handle my issues. I couldn't understand why I was here so long, but now, I know that this is why. ---

I'm stepping down off my pedestal and realizing that I messed up... bad! However, God is still greater than any mess I get myself into. I choose to lift Him up, and not my problems. I will magnify His name, and not how much I suck. I will speak life into this situation and I will watch Him turn it around.


No more lying, no more laziness, no more being stagnant, no more living by my own will, no more letting my flesh run my life. I am a Kingdom citizen... a child of God, just here on earth for a lil' while =) ... In the world, but not of it. THIS is who I'll see when I look in the mirror from now on =) ..Someone who doesn't take any more of Satan crap. He's under me and already defeated. I know who I am... I am ROYALTY

I know that the best is yet to come. I don't know is how, but I trust God. There is obviously still purpose for my life if I'm still here. The same goes for you. I know I am so unworthy of all that He does, but as long as I'm here, I will bless Him. Whether favor stops now, whether blessings stopped yesterday, and whether he never does ANOTHER thing for me. He's already done more than enough.  He has been EVERYTHING I've needed Him to be.. and SO much more. Its pretty amazing,.. HE's pretty amazing. (#Sigh... and the tears start again).

So.. lol I think I'm done.. ??? We'll see, y'all know how THIS goes.. might add more later, might not. I know one thing.. It WILL be spirit led. =) Love y'all!

Signed,

PAIGE NICOLETTE WRIGHT =) nothing more, nothing less.. just me ♥






*After the truth stops hurting... its feels AMAZING! Kind of like a scab healing* ♥